Ubuntu

I haven't been sleeping well the last two days.

I hardly slept at all.

I was waiting for an offer from my internal org, but somehow my gut feel tells me I will not be given it.

And without the offer, I know I will find myself in a place I don't want to be.

And the option of quitting is very real.

Just because I know I won't be able to take it.

And it's better to leave on the right note than try to be proud and tell myself I can do it again.

I always left myself behind in the past.

I tried my best. Even if it meant giving up myself.

Getting a fever. Getting fat and stressed from binge eating under pressure. Feeling spent. And at the end of the day I was left completely empty.

I feel sorry to my team I will be leaving behind.

Even as I know that team I left behind will also be stronger than me, but maybe equally broken.

Ubuntu said "how can anyone of us be happy if we know another is sad?" yet many of you don't care about this, I know, even if some do that I am thankful for.

I decided to bid farewell on Tuesday if things turn out as expected. Thank you to all the friends I made. Another journey alone. Take care.