Trauma? Hurt.

Just found out today the killer of the Singapore girl in Spain was my brother's primary school friend and also someone everyone in my family knew quite well. For me. I have at least had 30+ conversations with him.

And I can say, I knew what he was like.

But a killer. And someone that could stab someone 30 times? Sometimes, I really can't believe it.

You know. Life is so complicated nowadays. Even for myself. I can't say that I wouldn't do something like that. It's just a question "what pushes you far enough to do it?"

What's your breaking point. Christians, I know, some of them believe in this saying that God will not tempt you more than you can bear. But surely. In this situation, it is highly out of context.

And even for Jesus. He was pushed to death. But not death forever.

Do I believe there is salvation for Him? I do.

But I don't think anyone would agree with me because he's committed one of the most deadly sins in some factions of the Christian community. I wonder what the church will say.

All of us sin, but in man's eyes. Some sins are still unforgivable and deserve to be judged. Some sins to them. Are only reached by free will. Free choice.

But sometimes, you wonder.... Are these all already planned?

My life is an enigma. I've been surrounded by these controversies in my life since I was born. I don't know why I'm not yet crazy or have not yet murdered someone either. Sometimes. I believe it could just has easily have been me.