It wasn't meant to be this way

So many things are unexpected in our lives

For many years,

I always wanted stability in my job, yet now I embrace meaning and the diversity of people working with me

I wanted time for meaningful things, but find time short and fleeting and used for many things

I never wanted to care for myself, but I find myself caring even more for others

I never wanted to exercise, but exercise has become a release I can't let go off

I wanted to save money for my children, but now I spent it freely on them

I wanted many things, but now just having one thing means so much

Deep down, I always ask myself if I have changed.

And even if I have changed, is this really better?

Or am I just another form of dust

How is my journey better?

From un-expectedness, however, comes un-expectation.

Maybe that's better.